My Personal Journey

My husband Kevin died on May 1, 2025.  But that's not when I lost him.  He had a stroke on April 10, 2025 and he never recovered.  From that day on, I've been in a whirlwind.  Life doesn't stop because yours is shattered.

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I created this site while trying to find the "new me".  The old me died on April 10th, and the new me isn't fully developed.  Hell, she's not developed at all.  I don't know who I want her to be.

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But I know who I don't want her to be...and that's the fragile human being that's writing this.  The one that's scared at night and scared when she wakes because she doesn't know what pain the day will bring.  The "new me" is a phoenix that hasn't risen yet.

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As you read through my experiences, I hope those of you experiencing grief can relate.  I hope those of you not experiencing grief never do - but that's unrealistic.  I just hope that you will give those of us the grace to navigate in our own time, and in our own way.

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Screams in Silence describes how I feel...silently screaming every day.  All day.

 

The absence of sound does not indicate the absence of pain.